SIN

Oh dear lord I'm saturated

with all those sins you know I've done

all those sins have confiscated

my self respect one by one

I've given up to Satan's will

I've earned my way through to hell

earned my way to being ill

bid my morals for them to sell

Oh dear lord how much i suffer

and toss and turn through endless nights

toss and turn for nightmares batter

my tethered conscience, forsaken plight

Black ink blotches on a wrinkled white sheet

my stains of shame, identity scars

stains of shame that reek of deceit

as strong as stale urine in a pissoir

Various sins, minor and grand

several acts of mere imprudence

it's the truth, this is where I stand

ungoverned by jurisprudence

Oh dear lord I fear the day

when you and I stand face to face

when you get to hear my body complain

about all the times I fell from grace

Inflicted pain upon myself

yes I am condemned to that

but that's because I hate myself

for doing shameful things like that

Under the shower I close my eyes

imagining my sins slip down the drain

hoping that I could someday rise

and from sinful acts I would abstain

Sickening

It burns, it kept proving to me that it burns, it kept reminding me that it burns, as I evolve into an agitated monster, not in any state of mind to rationalize or even to allow realization of what is right or what is wrong to occur to me. It burns, and its flames nourish upon the oxygen I breathe. I am held captive, and I struggle to break loose. Being burned alive, I scream in anguish because of corrosive pain that erodes through my soul, enclosed within a suit of flesh, an encasing, so still and lifeless. It burns beyond the rate of control, it burns beyond into an incineration of destructive desire. A massacre of generations of innocence and the amendment of a new era of vengeance. A narrowed perspective, a state of fury, and a feeling of complete chaos inhabit the orderly creation of my human body. Pandemonium within discipline foreshadowing the silence before a storm. A demand for respect, a demand to abolish injustice, a demand for correction, it burns to establish. A demolition of corruption, an extermination of envy, and a call from within, upon hate to what prevails, roars for the world to hear.

It's the rage within me that burns, spitting flicks of despair at a world of imperfection!

You Were There Just Yesterday

I can't believe you're simply gone

You were there just yesterday

We made it through till the rise of dawn

But the life in you had to part its way

Beside your bed, I sat all night

And tamed myself from wanting to scream

Holding on to you so tight

Hoping for this to be only a dream

All I could do was stare at you

Craving for a comeback I knew was impossible

It was all so true, this goodbye to you

This painful fact that's hardly plausible

Your breaths got shallower and farther apart

with every minute that ticked away

pleading with heart, I believed I could thwart

the cruel reality that was heading my way

An explosion of tears drenched my face

As memories of you came out of the blue

Pangs of pain caused my heart to race

For I hated existence in a future without you

When it was time, your soul lingered

As if savoring the last minute

And I looked at you, like a child, bewildered

By the peaceful ascending of your graceful spirit

I already missed you a great crushing deal

Reluctantly realizing it'll always be this way

You're leaving me alone to a great ordeal

For without you my beloved I'm only astray.