Anonymous

From a distance, I stood there studying your every move

Meticulously noticing every single detail

From the finest patterns drawn by your delicate hand gestures

And the posture you sustain ever so gracefully

To the shimmering sparkle in your kind eyes

And the swift shift of your head backwards as you laughed

I was careful to catch it all and not miss any of it

Everything you did came at me like a needle to the veins

As I watched you, time seemed to slow down ridiculously

Everything I saw you do infused steadily into my soul

Acting like morphine, it drained me of my pain

And it drowned me with an overwhelming feeling of satisfaction

I wished that I could stay there forever just staring at you

Instead, I smiled myself back into reality

And I opened my eyes to another new day

Realising that you'll never know that...............

You've always been part of my dreams

And I've always been anonymous to you.

Confused

• You ask me what you mean to me
• You ask me what in you I see
• You can't believe my love to you
• Just can't believe that we are true
• Your heart is sad so filled with pain
• Your past, let it go down with the rain
• Don't cry don't fear, for you I'm here
• For you my sweet are very dear
• You're so confused trying to figure out
• What this thing called love is all about
• But you can't see that you're in me
• With everyday I live to be
• Trying to be so perfect to pay me back
• But baby boo you're losing track
• Between us both walls don't exist
• My all, to me you are just the best
• The only, the one, the beautiful love
• The sweetest angel sent from up above
• My shining star, we've reached this far
• Only because this is true, I am me and you are you
• We're two crazy heads so filled with life, so filled with love, so frightened too
• But fear is weak when your hands hold mine
• And the darkness of the night would start to shine
• Showing us the difficulties that lie ahead
• Forcing us to go back, break, and never mend
• It's difficult and endless filled with sacrifices
• This road I chose to walk with you
• We'll lead the way till the sun rises
• And warms the cold of bad times we've been through
• This way with you is my chosen destiney
• It's what I want, it's what was meant for me
• Because I believe that we were meant to be, I believe you're my only sanctuary
• Walk with me this road forever, don't leave me to be lost again
• Love me now or love me never, to me that matters really none
• Because with you my life begun, yeah that's you, you're the one
• Look at me, look what you've done
• You warmed my heart with rays of sun
• You taught me things I've never known
• You gave me love when no one cared
• It's you I want, its you alone
• So stay with me and don't be scared
• Don't kill the moments that we've shared
• Don't run away and don't just hide
• Hold me tight stay by my side
• Yeah baby boo I love you so
• I love you more than you'll ever know
• I want you too forever more
• Without your love my heart is sore
• I beg you stay you're what I've got
• I beg you stay, I love you alot.
  

One look, Endless Wonder.

My heart pounds so hard in my chest it feels like it's forcing itslef through my ribs and out of my body. My shirt shakes insanely and every pulse becomes visible to you. Breathing becomes so difficult as I try to keep up with the rhythm of my heart. Whispers of breath become louder and louder as I find myself lost in the beauty of your eyes. One look at you paralyses my brain and a pang caused by electricity shocks my whole body only to bring me back to that electrifying experience. Time stops and I live forever in the moment where you look at me. Everything freezes in its place and it seems like you're the only thing that exists. The intensity of the situation urges me into a state of infancy, where I find myself an innocent child looking at you as if looking at a bright light for the first time, and the waiting for an explanation to the beautiful feeling that exhilarates my body is portrayed as an echoing effervescent giggle. Despite all the strength and might in me, when it comes to you looking at me like that, I'm as vulnerable as an embryo. It's amazing how something as simple as a look could steal the sanity of a person. Yet, it is much more amazing how the absence of this simplicity can still steal the sanity of a person. When you turn around and our eyes no longer meet, for a second it seems like you save me from the curse your look casts upon me. It seems like you save me from drowning in the complexity of my emotions and from swimming endlessly in the vast sea of meanings your alluring look conveys. Though, the cruel truth unwinds without rhyme or reason to reveal itself and I find myself lost without the painfull yet enticing feelings, thirsty for one more look, hungry for one more rush of adrenaline, and begging like a slave to be enslaved by the look in your eyes.

The Perfect Relationship

Pain is a gift when your love becomes my pain. Tears are words when i cry to beg you not to leave. Darkness is comfort when I close my eyes only to see your face glow in the darkness of my dreams. Losing sleep becomes a blessing when I can't sleep at night because i can't stop thinking of you. I forget to breathe because you are my air. I forget all about torture because when you are with me, I can't feel the pain or cry the tears, or sleep the nights. When you're with me, all I can feel, cry, breathe, or even hear, is the warmth of your love. No matter how hard it gets, when you are with me only the perfect relationship exists. Seconds that pass by never return, and i fear waking up someday in the grave to find out that I have missed out on my entire life. Thinking of you steals the years that are left for me to live, but that does not matter because i realise that life is not worth living if you are not the reason i live for. I smile when my heart tells me that it makes no difference if either a year or only a minute is left in my life, because having your love is enough to determine that i have already lived enough. No matter how hard it gets, when you are with me only the perfect relationship exists. You conquer my heart, mind, and soul, but all I do is surrender to you, raising a white flag like a defeated soldier. Before you came along, I used to fight love with guns of strength, courage, and hope. Now, when you throw a loving look at me, my guns melt and i lie defenseless before your love. You break the strength in me when i miss you so much, and i know that i am weak because I need you. You steal the courage in me when I want to tell you that I love you, and I know that I'm a coward because I can't. You wash away the hope in me when I wonder how you feel about me, and I know that I am in despair because I want you badly. No matter how hard it gets, when you are with me only the perfect relationship exists.

Giving You

I would kill my soul for you to live

I would drain my heart to pump joy into yours

I would bleed to death to quench your thirst

I would hold my breath to blow the life into you

I would give away my days to add them onto yours

I would give you my eyes to see

I would bestow the cosmos to you if you'd please

But will you live your life for me?

Will you kiss my frozen lips when i die?

Will you search for my soul in your memories when i go?

Will your tears warm my heart as i wait for you in heaven?

Will you hug me tight when my corpse lies still and helpless?

Assure my lost eyes that you would for me cry blood into tears

Tell my weak heart that for me you would donate existence

Tell my breathless soul that for me you would swear a vow of everlasting love

Tell my shivering body that for me you would search the poles for warmth that'll bless my soul

Tell me that you would oh please sure do

Give me back the life I've given you.